Appearance is everything?

"You never know just how you look
through other peoples eyes"

Pepper By the Butthole Surfers


It has taken me 39 years to determine that what others think about me means nothing. Even though it has been clear to me for a while, the last 3-4 months has sealed the deal. I do the best that I can most of the time, am honest-brutally at that, try to be a good spirited, big hearted person, and yet I still get fucked with on a daily basis. I think I am the bigger person most of the time and keep my trap shut. But, there are those times that I revert to my red-neck way of thinking. Now, I am not saying that I AM a red-neck, I'm just saying I have those thoughts.


"I would rather someone hate me for what I am,
than like me for what I am not."

something I heard once.

This has always stood true for me. It takes someone about 30 minutes to get to know me. Really. I have been the same all of my life. And I don't forsee me changing anything. I understand that there are people that I am going to butt heads with, like that guy from the Mountain Dew comercial and the ram, but I am cool with that. I just have to figure out who those people are and avoid them if possable. Unfortunately, I have a few of them who I am really close to and it creates a problem.
I am loud, opinionated, often have flight of ideas, get bored easily, change my mind often, have difficulty completing things, get sucked into drama, worry too much about bullshit, speak my mind without a filter, and scratch my head often when people don't listen/care about what I have to say. Other than that, I'm good.

I guess what I am trying to accomplish with this post is............ I don't know. Just gettin' it out there.

and.....

If you don't like me........I don't care.

If I don't like you....... you'll know it.


On the flip-side, I don't hold grudges. So I wont end up not liking you for long. I guess I have a big heart and am a softie.